Friends

Friends, a lot of the time a friend is something we take for granted. They kind of just exist in our lives being part of it in our day to day activity. And yes, I am including family with friends because with some friendships the line between family and friend is non-existent. You don't really understand the gravity of a friendship until it's either been damaged or it's all you have to keep you out of the dark places of your mind.

I can say I've felt both ends of that spectrum. It's hard and it really hurts, hurts more than I can say with words. I never could have ever imagined the love and support I got from my friends. Sure on some level I knew they would be there for me when needed but usually we think of helping move or hanging out after a rough day. But to sit on the phone with me for hours basically just listening to me cry and saying that I matter and I am important. It floored me. I felt alone and empty and my friends called, messaged, and called again just to see how I was doing and let me just unload on them. Because of my friends I know that I matter, and I know that I am important. It's something I'm extremely grateful for and there's no way I could ever repay that.

I guess that's why it's called friendship. You do something for someone without even thinking of getting anything in return. You're there for them, you support them, you love on them. I'm thankful for my friends, I'd be in a lot worse shape without them.